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Megan is theee name :]

I speak my mind and I like good English.
If you take the time to get close to me, I'm a good friend and I give some good advice.
It's hard to do that when I don't know the problem, though, so speak up!

It makes me happy knowing I've been a lot of help to some people and that I am important to thee important people in my life.


I want to find someone who encourages me to do what makes me happy. I want to find someone who makes me want to do better. I want to find someone who loves me for me and can look past what meets the eye. I sometimes wonder if i'll ever find that person.

Slow and steady wins the race.

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24 April 11

breakable girls and boys.

This isn’t the first time, and it most definitely will not be the last.
I’m not sure you know what it feels like to constantly be replaced, overridden, and shit on. not only by assholes, but your sister as well.

I spend so much time tweeking who i am and changing myself so someone in this world will give me the time of day and accept me. The instant you hear me talking about having interest in someone, you sweep in and steal them away from me like it’s nothing.everything i worked for means nothing. I change everything about myself to be accepted yet you don’t have to say a word and you instantly have them hooked. i’m sorry i’m not as skinny as you, and im sorry im not as pretty as you. what’s not fair is i probably care 10 times more about these people you’re sweeping out my life than you, yet i’m not given a a second of the day because you’re a distraction. Because you’re prettier. you’re skinnier. you’re better.

I honestly feel like the ugly stepsister no body wants to be around or deal with.I really, honestly, genuinely. have no idea what to do with myself at this point. i don’t know where to go from here.

The fact that you think it’s okay to let this happen, to allow me to go through this over and over again without thinking.. “hey, maybe i should let this guy know that i have no interest in him solely for the fact that it is tearing my sister apart”, hurts more than all of the above. It’s not about who it is. it’s not about how long i’ve known them, or even if i don’t know them at all and just was interested in getting to know them that is the issue. It’s the fact that you know that i have some kind of interest, and you know that i struggle with feeling like there’s always someone taking my place no matter what it is im doing.. and you still think its okay.
maybe you don’t like him.. how am i to now? your last two boyfriends(aside from trevor) were guys that i liked and you decided to then date…so what’s that say?

i just don’t get it.
im just tired of never being good enough. for anything. or anyone. and being replaced by the people closest to me.
good.night.

Themed by Hunson. Originally by Josh