Keep your eyes on the road, Meg
I’ve come to realize I’ve been looking in the wrong direction for a long time.
Always focused on something else.
Never worrying about what I should be worrying about.
Looking in my rear-view mirror instead of what’s in front of me.
do you catch my drift? I’ve been keeping my eye cast backward, and missing what’s coming my way. It’s not just a glance. It has been months and months of me allowing things from my past to ruin the present. This very instant that i’ll never get back.
I often find myself feeling the walls close in on me when something goes wrong.
How I didn’t plan.
I plan for things to go how I want them to go, and when they don’t I’m a hot mess.
I lash out and I destroy everything in my tracks.
And i’ll be the first to tell you, I deliberately hurt people’s feelings when I’m in one of my moods. Something I’m totally disgusted by, but i’m working on.
But I’ve come to realize these things, and I’ve come to realize why I do these things.
I sometimes forget that my plans and God’s plans are two different things.
I must trust in him, and remember that he will give me a future.
Realize that things will be okay, and he will not turn the other cheek.
Know that I will always have him, and that i must lay my life at his feet.
I have to remind myself that he will not meet my selfish needs, but give me what I do need.
“I know the plans I have for you,” delcares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”
Jeremiah 29: 11
