I’m in a mood.
My day was absolutely horrible.
I don’t understand how I’m supposed to ever rely on anyone when my own father continuously lets me down. It seems like such little things, but they play a huge role in my issues. I’m always being forgotten about. By friends, my own father.
Something so simple. Yet i sat at the doors for an hour waiting for you bawling my eyes out because you let me down once again.
Your irresponsibility carried over into my life and the dominos just kept falling.
You give me the guilt trip and all I hear is you calling out for pitty.
“i let you down, im sorry. you hate me don’t you?”
yeah. Sometimes, I do hate you.
And then I feel bad for being mad because you give me this guilt trip. When you do that I have no time to get over things.. And they eat and eat and eat at me and it ruins my spirit man. I am not okay. I am not okay. There are so many things I have issues with because you haven’t been consistent with me.
You are the only male figure I have in my life, and you ruined that for me.
No wonder I date losers.
No wonder I’m alone.
